and then I pjam' to rooney in my head.

I haven't blogged in a long time. Mostly because I've been busy and just not in the write everything down kind of mood. However, things have been alright this past week. The love of my life came to visit me and I've been able to be around a lot of family.

I've decided that this week I'm really greatful for my aunt michelle. Well I'm greatful for her all the weeks, but especially this week. She's help me and comforted me through a lot. Via cheap wine and sitcoms. I just love how I can be so open with her. I wish my mom and her shared more than the same shaped face. I absolutely adore living this close to her. It's a literal life saver.

Now I ask you....when did I become a beacon? When did I become somewhat of a helper? A new friend of mine is going through a lot in his life. I've literally only known this kid for weeks and we've spilt the darker parts of our lives to each other. Which is odd and rare. He's getting the help he needs and I've been exactly where he is. Depressed, hardly able to function, not seeing an point what so ever of why life decideds to drag painfully on. And I hope so much that I can get the point across to him that there is more to live for. There is happiness in everything, I hope somehow I can show him that without the disposition of a corny therapist. There's not much more that I can say, though. I just don't know what I would do if something happened to him, more importantly what would happen to his friends, and even my cousin. It's a strange feeling to genuinly love and care for someone whom I hardly know, and an even stranger one to council someone who is going through many of the same things I have trudged. It almost compels me to pray.

I just finished indulging in a very interesting, and yes indie, film. Yet another amazing low budget movie. It's called "Mozart and the Whale." I really do recommend it. So strange and romantic, great camera angles ;) Phenomenal acting. Makes me jones to be creative.

Anyway, other than that I don't have much of an update. Things have been going alright. Been depressed but that's per usual these days. It'll pass. It always does. Thus the life of a struggling genius...kidding.

Well in honor of Luciano Pavarotti's birthday here is a quote:
"For me, music making is the most joyful activity possible, the most perfect expression of any emotion. "